7. To The Man Who Brought Me Back To Life
These breakup letters were sent in by FTS readers
To the man who brought me back to life,
You were one of the hardest breakups I've had because you were the easiest relationship I've had. I know I didn't make it seem like it was hard for me to do, but I know how much you love me and it Killed me to do that to you. Our relationship was doomed to fail from the start. I told you from day one that I wasn't looking for love, or a relationship, or a partner, just company. You just smiled and said "okay", with this hope that I would change my mind if you were patient with me, if you never argued with me, and if you did stuff for me. I told you I wasn't ready for a relationship, yet you kept asking for one. I told you I wasn't ready to fall in love again, yet you knew what buttons to push to make me fall for you. You worked really hard at this relationship so of course on my end it seemed effortless. After my previous relationship that could have been detrimental you came into my life with this remarkable ability to calm me down, and I loved you for it.
Who Even knows how long we were "together" because it was off again on again, me breaking it off over and over and you just patiently waiting behind the scenes of my life for me to come back to you. It's a good plan, I'll admit. But I'm in a time in my life where if someone is going to be in my life, they need to be my partner not just follow me around. I want someone with their own ambitions who also wants to be successful and I don't have to constantly lift them up. You're such a good person, really. And I do love you a lot, but I need more than love. I would rather be alone than just be content in love. I want passion, and success, and ambition, and more than you were offering. I don't think this makes me selfish, I think leading you on would've been selfish.
Communication between us was also rough, which is strange for twO Geminis. There were many times when you were selfish and didn't take my feelings into account and this last time just really put things in perspective for me. We're too different or too similar in the wrong ways. I will always love you, you brought me back to life, but I can't commit to you. And although I would love to stay friends with you, I just know that you would use it to hang in the backdrop until I came back to you because it's been your strategy this far. If I'm going to move on I need a clean break. And I am hurting because I'm losing my best friend, but I really feel like this is actually the right decision. It's also hard because I'm not breaking up with you because I met someone else, or because you cheated, or any reason that could make me hate you. I'm just trying to be a mature adult who is admitting that my feelings for you aren't strong enough for me to commit the rest of my life to you, and that is so much harder to grasp because I so very much waNted you to be the one.